Psalm 118:17-18 (NIV) I will not die but live, and will proclaim what the LORD has done. The LORD has chastened me severely, but he has not given me over to death.
Intelligence, talent, passion, sincerity, courage against injustice, equanimity, embracing, concern, devotion, selfless giving… Love.
In a world of war, egocentrism, and conquest… these virtues, although admirable from afar, get in the way of this world’s existential ethos. You want to be good…but you are discouraged by the majority who are not interested in selfless living.
You are alone- or at least, you feel like it.
Like a person who wakes up in the midst of a zombie apocalypse, you realize, that you’re not just the only surviving person, but that all the zombies want to have you for breakfast.
You wonder, “If I give myself to destruction, will they finally realize what they have done, and repent? Will compassion arouse their hearts to love?”
“Wake up…” Said a commanding whisper that echoed through the darkness.” Stop wanting to be loved by those who would delight in your destruction! Don’t you see how much I love you?”
Startled from the torment, I woke up in hot wrath. My cold, comfortable crypt was merely a dream. Life and love eagerly awaited besides me.
I looked and saw the one beside me- Where had she been? Could it be that in my search for appreciation and love, that I too had been blinded by the darkness of my ego? How hypocritical of me to judge- when I myself was blinded by my own self-absorption!
Behind the light-hearted veil of giggles- an embodiment of patient forbearance and hope. How could the day remain dark when her radiance emits a simple, yet profound eagerness to experience the joy of life?
Her eyes could not hide her mission… her only mission: to walk besides me and to share…life.
In an ocean of broken promises, she kept her word.
“Don’t urge me to leave you or to turn back from you. Where you go I will go, and where you stay I will stay. Your people will be my people and your God, my God.” Ruth 1:16
No longer does death have power over me. I will live… Her eyes have convinced me to live. Her gentle spirit has filled me with Hope. By her side I am truly alive… In her eyes I have value.
I am determined to live… she deserves it.