My wife Liz and I have been watching the X-Files since it first aired on September 10, 1993, just a little over 3 years after our wedding day.
After a trying Sunday at church that culminated in spiritual victory… we bought some wine to enjoy with the pizza we had frozen from 2 nights before. Needless to say…we spent the rest of the evening just cuddling up to each other like two older birds in their empty nest, while watching our favorite show on Netflix.
Throughout the evening I kept on picking up the little photo album of our wedding day and looking at how we used to be so young, beautiful, and filled with hope. Unlike me, my wife is still attractive and as beautiful in my eyes as the day that I met her- perhaps even more.
While watching Dana Scully and Fox Mulder… I kept on saying throughout the night: “They are so beautiful.” Granted…maybe it was the wine! Just this morning I found out that the X-Files is going to be “resurrected” through 6 new episodes that have already been shot. I am so excited!! The first episode of the new X Files is going to premiere on January 24, 2016 on Fox. You can watch the trailer here:
Like in our case, not even Gillian Anderson and David Duchovny could escape the effects of aging- as with all of us- but even so, they are still beautiful in my eyes. As I was on my third glass of well-deserved Pinot Noir and snuggling with my favorite chick, I quietly reflected on the reasons why the X Files have always been so intriguing to us.
I have always been aware that the truths of life transcend our limited scope of physical perception and the narratives that we have inherited.
The word “mystic” does no justice in describing the glimpses of the spiritual realm (for lack of a better term) that I’ve been gifted with. But even though I’ve been granted many “spiritual” experiences, I have never been shackled to them. In fact, I have sought all of my life after the truth- even if that truth points to the possibility of my being insane.
I have literally questioned everything in my path- but instead of remaining complacent with our inherited paradigms or conformed with doubt and cynicism… my whole life has been an open quest after the truth. I have only cared about the bottom line- the quintessential essence that defines all things. I have literally believed all of my life that “the truth is out there,” and therefore, I have sought for it at all costs…
On the other hand Liz is not a “mystic” by any means. Although she has been a Christian all of her life and a woman of intense faith, she never perceived anything out of the ordinary. Like Dana Scully with Fox Mulder, Liz always questioned my experiences…with gentle, plausible theories that could keep me well-grounded upon “verifiable truth.”
But like the mystical non-conformist that I’ve always been…I have pursued after the truth even to the point of challenging my own Christian Faith. I hate superficial, philosophical beliefs that serve as smoke screens that hide the fear we all experience when questioning the “truths” we have inherited.
Perhaps this is the reason why most people do not sit down with open hearts and minds in exploratory conversation. We insulate our egos with smoke screens… with lies…with fantasies that we hope are “truths” that can define and justify our lives, our preferences and ourselves. Yet in seeking to insulate our egos, we detach ourselves from coming to the freedom that is possible to achieve when ultimate reality is discovered.
Like in the case of Dana Scully with Fox Mulder, Liz has come to experience firsthand many of the unexplained phenomenon that happen around me; and because of this, she now has come to believe in the reality of the unexplained happenings that we oftentimes experience.
As I was falling asleep in her arms, one of the last thoughts that crossed my mind was that after years of hoping to discover the truth “out there,” that I have finally found it “in here,” in the bond of unconditional love that my wife and I share. Her “irrational” and loyal love for me has served to teach me that perhaps there is no other fundamental truth than this…
That LOVE is the ultimate reality!
This is why the old Apostle John wrote the following words in 1 John 4:8-10
“Whoever does not love does not know God, because God is love. This is how God showed his love among us: He sent his one and only Son into the world that we might live through him. This is love: not that we loved God, but that he loved us and sent his Son as an atoning sacrifice for our sins.”
The truth is not “out there.” It is here…in our love for one another.
I hope that Mulder also realizes that the peace that he seeks will only be found in the arms of Scully. That regardless of space ships, aliens and terrorists… that her unconditional love for him will be the only thing that will ever set him free from the torment of always having to seek for ultimate truth…“out there.”